OUR PRECIOUS SAVIOUR

"She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more."

John 8:11
King James Version

I am so thankful that our Saviour loves us unconditionally and doesn't condemn us. For those of you who have been on my mailing list for my devotions every day for the last twenty years, you know that before Jesus saved me and gave me a new heart, I was not a very nice person.

I was disrespectful to my parents. One time I said this to my Mom "I hate you". I have cried many tears because of this. I asked her to forgive me and she did but people can forgive us for what we say but the words can never be taken back.

We might as well take a knife and plunge it deep into someone's heart because words hurt this much. Doctors can do open heart surgery but only Jesus, the great Physician, can heal a broken heart.

I went through a deep depression for over forty years. I hated everyone. I really believed I didn't have a right to live. When I was in school, some of the students said to me "You are so stupid and ugly. You should kill yourself".

After hearing this for several weeks, I honestly believed I didn't have a right to live and I tried to take my life four times. However, God had other plans for me and He sent someone to rescue me from dying.

Someone emailed me and asked me if it is difficult for me to write about my personal life. I emailed the person back and wrote "Yes, it is very difficult but if it helps anyone, then it is worth it".

I even checked myself into mental hospitals because I really didn't want to die, I just believed I was too ugly and stupid to live. I'm so glad that one day Jesus came to me as I was lying under a bed in the mental hospital where I had crawled because I was afraid of everyone and everything.

I've had several people ask me why I love Jesus so much and why I write about Him. It is because one happy day Jesus put His arms of compassion and love around me and lifted me up from under that bed. He said "Joanne, I love you and I won't let anyone hurt you again".

I have a sister and family who I love with all my heart and God has given me a Pastor that I would die for and I have many wonderful friends but only Jesus could have given me a new heart. One happy day, I will have the privilege of seeing Him face to face.
I love You so much, dear Jesus. When I see You I'm going to hug You and never let You go. Thank You for loving me when I was so unlovely and for never leaving me. You are not only my Saviour, You are my very best Friend.

Joanne Lowe
June 5, 2021